Nerves...

So, I am starting to get nervous. But actually it is a good nervous. I am nervous because I am feeling really confident about this 3rd IVF cycle and you know what that means....a pregnancy! I just feel like all I know is TTC and once I am pregnant I am scared about how I will feel. I am absolutely certain I will have BFP guilt. I can feel it already. I can feel it when I think about seeing my BFP for the first time. Sigh.... We are never satisfied, huh? I know I will never forget my journey and I will constantly think about all the women struggling every day still. Some of them being my dear friends that this journey has brought us together. Sometimes I close my eyes and I try to imagine what my reaction will be like when I get my BFP. I often think that feeling won't ever become a reality. I hope to God that it does. And I hate to be greedy at a time like this but I hope I can experience that feeling more than once. I dream about my family all the time.